I wasn't going to post this, because it's shameful and embarrassing. But, apparently, it's a lesson I need to remember. The other day I was in a really bad mood. It was a hard week last week, with the baby throwing up all day and night, and then I got sick too...It was really hard and it wore me down.
I was in a REALLY bad mood. Stomping through the house like an angry bear. Not pretty.
Jenalyn asked me {very sweetly and sincerely} "Do you hate being a mom?"
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Stopped me dead in my tracks. My first thought was,
if I keep this up, she's never going to want to have children!I guess my
actions speak louder than my words. When I tell them that I quit my job at the office because I always wanted to be a mommy, and I'd rather stay home and take care of them than do anything else in the world, I need to
SHOW them I mean that.
I saw
this blog today and it had me in tears. She quoted a poem...which then had me
sobbing. I need to be a better mom! I need to
show my kids that I love what I do.
Little Eyes Upon You There are little eyes upon you
and they're watching night and day.
There are little ears that quickly
take in every word you say.
There are little hands all eager
to do anything you do;
And a little girl who's dreaming
of the day she'll be like you.
You're the little angel's idol,
you're the wisest of the wise.
In her little mind about you
no suspicions ever rise.
She believes in you devoutly,
holds all you say and do;
She will say and do, in your way
when she's grown up just like you.
There's a wide-eyed little girl
who believes you're always right;
and her eyes are always opened,
and she watches day and night.
You are setting an example
every day in all you do;
For the little girl who's waiting
to grow up to be like you.
I want my girls to have joy in motherhood. I want them to WANT it as badly as I did when I was young. It's an amazing responsibility.
The motherly instincts are there. I can't screw this up for them.
(this is an old video, but I thought it was relevant to this post.)
