This time it was for ME!

I found this picture on FaceBook on Saturday night. It's so beautiful to me. Both the picture and the promise in the scripture. I immediately thought of certain family members who could benefit from such a promise because of the hardships they are currently dealing with.

I tend to do that. When I'm in a church meeting and I hear something awesome, I immediately think of certain people in my life who *should be here, hearing this right now*

I always think of other people who could use the message. I rarely internalize it. Not because I'm so full of myself and I don't think I need the help. But because I'm a fixer. I like to fix other people's problems.

Well, guess what. I NEED HELP! I have been all tied up in knots over parenting a certain child of mine. I got not one, but TWO calls from the principal's office this week. I lay awake worrying about this child. And worrying about ME as the mother of this child. Can I really do this? Am I adequate? Am I going to screw this up even more? What more can I do or say to help him?

My stomach hurts and I am losing sleep.

So yesterday while sitting in church, the Lord spoke to me. And I heard Him loud and clear: I cannot do this alone. I need His help.

We had a girls A Cappella choir from BYU come and do a special little performance for our Youth. They sang one song in particular that touched me. Abide With Me Tis Eventide.

Abide with me.

That's what I need. I need Him to Abide with me...like, at all times. Always. I need the Spirit with me all day long. I truly believe that if I have that, I will be more inspired as a mother. I will lose my temper less. And I will find more opportunities to teach, instead of just rant and rave.

Then I remembered the above picture. When I saw it the previous night I didn't relate it to myself (how foolish). But, after hearing that song, it's the first thing I thought of.

Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light. Matthew 11: 28-30

I am heavy laden. I need rest.

And all I have to do is let Him help me. I need to ask for his help daily. DUH! Seems so simple. But I was somehow missing it. Maybe I just needed a reminder.

I felt very humbled. And yet, I felt loved. I know there are others who's problems are greater than mine. But He spoke to ME! He will abide with ME if I ask him to. My troubles are important too. They are important to Him. The Almighty loves ME. And my offspring...he doesn't want me to screw this up either.